carissa explains it all.

carissuhh @ 2007-09-15T23:07:00

2007-09-16T03:12:51Z

to write in lj again? hmm, risssky.

carissuhh @ 2007-02-26T09:03:00

2007-02-26T14:04:16Z

i'm excited for road trips and countdowns too them !
ilstacey. byyyee.

carissuhh @ 2007-02-02T23:23:00

2007-02-03T04:23:48Z

i like how my birthday this year will be spent with kate & sara going out to eat. but i will miss this, forever. i miss everyonethat i used to be close to. and i blamed it on everyone else, i guess it was just me when i think about it at the end.

carissuhh @ 2007-01-23T22:19:00

2007-01-24T03:20:56Z

is life worth living when the only positive thing you hear all day was an old indian guy telling you that you looked nice today ?
i wonder.

carissuhh @ 2006-12-07T04:22:00

2006-12-07T04:22:39Z

life's good !
i miss some people.
and you people know who you are, call me up!

carissuhh @ 2006-11-16T04:32:00

2006-11-16T04:32:52Z

good thing i update this thing right?

carissuhh @ 2006-10-12T03:24:00

2006-10-12T03:27:50Z

why do i have to long for a worthless piece of shit? why does any one have to long for something that is always fucking taken away from them ? why do we have to long for happiness, can't we just... be ? and like it? i don't know.

carissuhh @ 2006-10-10T03:38:00

2006-10-10T03:43:24Z

i had an anxiety attack when i got home from work. i've been so stressed and shit. i'm not going to school tomorrow, it's a good day off and then work which i don't really mind. i will have a massive paycheck and it all needs to go in the bank. ahahha. life is actually pretty good.
leave plans with me for fri. and sunday.
i need them.
i need as much time away from this house as i can get.

i like applejuice, a blanket,and miami ink.

carissuhh @ 2006-10-07T01:24:00

2006-10-07T05:25:06Z

sometimes i wonder what he looks like. i've never met or seen him. sometimes i wonder if i look at all like him.

carissuhh @ 2006-10-06T00:30:00

2006-10-06T00:41:29Z

i started my new job at panera's yesterday, it kind of kicked my ass to be honest with you, however i see me having a better time there. today i had a 1/2 day. since gina is grounded now, we couldn't go to philly. so i walked with her & waited for her at the train station. i came home, and took a 100 hr nap. rofl. it was gooood though. i hung out with kate and sara. i love them two. we went to two different pet stores to look at animals and then the chinese buffettt.

i'm not over it, i'm not. no matter how much i convince myself that i am. i've been realizing this for the past week, it's horrible too. i need help right now. a lot of people don't really seem to be all there for me right now, which is fine other people have other shit to deal with. but i listen to you..all i ask is for a pair of ears and some comforting. oh, by the way that in no way was any shape or form of "complaining", "whining", or "shouting out for attention".

sara joy, please feel better, and don't give yourself cancer tonight !looove you.

true story:

2006-10-02T04:11:29Z

thank you sara, i needed that tonight.
and thank you gina, i needed that said about me today.
it helps.
you help, both of you.
i'm lonely.
alright - you know it's bad when your mom is trying to hook you up with guys that you have no interest in what so ever.sometimes i feel i don't need anyone at all. other's i really need someone to be there when everyone else isn't.
if you do not agree with me about needing someone, i don't care.
i'm letting it all go.
and i mean... all.
no more old grudges. i'm making room for new ones, and if you have a feeling that this grudge is against you, it probably is. hahahhaha.
sara gives me a backbone & i loveit.

carissuhh @ 2006-09-30T14:00:00

2006-09-30T18:05:33Z

i tried to be positive, but i'm back to the negative.. i guess. people make me this way though. panera bread hired me i start there wed, why am i not excited about having a new job ? it beats me. it will be a very busy week for me though. i discovered last night that i now get anexity attacks. it' felt like someone was standing on my chest, not a very good feeling.

carissuhh @ 2006-09-27T23:30:00

2006-09-28T03:32:13Z

oh here's another one. being home sick.. which sucks, but turning on hbo and having a good movie come on, and for sure, that doesn't suck.
who wants to hang out friday?

the fix.

2006-09-27T00:36:15Z

So here's a couple questions you can all ponder over:

Why do we always use livejournal to voice our problems, what ever happened to plain out talking to someone about them?
Whatever happened to writing about shit that makes us happy, things that matter to you the most? And not our problems.

And unlike most entries, this one has nothing to do with what's going on in my life. Just stuff I was thinking about.

So here's some things that make me happy:

Waking up and having someone cooking breakfast for you preferablly pancakes, or french toast. Having a day off from work when it is much needed. Talking to someone who you haven't talked to in a really long time, and then finding out that you can still talk to that person like you did before. Being accepted by someone you thought you'd never be accepted by. When it's cold out at night. When someone asks me what I want to do, instead of insisting upon doing what they want to do. Listening & talking.

Everyone try it, right now. Think of shit that makes you happy. Not other people's problems. Just the shit that makes YOU have a smile on your face and makes you realize you enjoy life. Pleaaaaase.

carissuhh @ 2006-09-24T22:27:00

2006-09-25T02:31:25Z

saturday niiggghttssss. love it. love making history.
just plain out love it. & you girls.

carissuhh @ 2006-09-21T14:55:00

2006-09-21T18:56:19Z

i lost my rock.
i have nothing to lean on.
and this is the entire truth.

carissuhh @ 2006-09-17T23:34:00

2006-09-18T03:36:09Z

i hate updating.
it's always the same shit over and over again.
hope everything is well for everyone.

carissuhh @ 2006-09-10T22:24:00

2006-09-11T02:25:06Z

it smells like fall.
i guess it's a good time to be alone.

whatever.

carissuhh @ 2006-09-06T17:54:00

2006-09-06T21:57:39Z

school today... what a fucking mess that was.

carissuhh @ 2006-08-29T02:09:00

2006-08-29T06:14:56Z

So my bitching has mainly all gone to Alexa and Hannah this past week. Me and hannah have hung out the past 3 days which has been nice. Because.. We used to see each other every day. That stopped along with seeing Dan and Mikey. I don't know about life these days. I have no idea what to think of it. Because everyday it throws something new at me.

& that last entry, wasn't really towards one person. Just geared towards a group of people, actually.

Why don't I ever have anywhere to go when I need it?

I'm going to alexa's this friday and hopefully I'm staying there for awhile.
Sara, where have you been?Get in touch with me, and let's hangout before school and all that cool shit starts.
I've had off of work for a week, and I love it.
That of course, leaves me poor.
I have no money, at all.
& I'm blonde.

carissuhh @ 2006-08-26T00:13:00

2006-08-26T04:17:02Z

i've met some pretty gross people in my life, but you... you are by far the biggest scumbag i have ever layed my eyes on. if i ever attempt to do what you do, i'd be cut. but you get away with it.. why is that?

carissuhh @ 2006-08-23T00:10:00

2006-08-23T04:10:16Z

fuck life, hxc.

carissuhh @ 2006-08-17T01:40:00

2006-08-17T05:42:24Z

so, hannah's in the hospital.
it's really weird seeing her hooked up to all kinds of stuff.
she can't even breath on her own.
and she coughs every other sentence.uggh.
i'm a bad person sometimes. i swear i am.
i'm sick.
i'm going to bed.

carissuhh @ 2006-08-11T02:47:00

2006-08-11T05:49:00Z

wow, what am i doing with my life ?
someone please tell me.

carissuhh @ 2006-08-10T02:19:00

2006-08-10T06:20:08Z

when is it my turn ?